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There was this Pinterest pin I found the other day which got me thinking: Am I a Multi Tasker or Single Task kind of girl? I would consider myself a bit of both because as of this writing I am focused on writing this entry while listening to a mukbang video by Stephanie Soo - and its making me hungry though!!! So yeah..its making me crazy though that I am thinking about this but are there people like that? Single Task people? In this day and age multi tasking is really the way people do things. I can say I do that as well because of the limited time, we tend to spread ourselves too thin to the point that we have to do two things at the same time. But most people crash eventually if that happens. And it has happened to me so many times. I normally would just shut everything down when I feel that it is too much for me. I feel too pressured to do something that I am not particularly comfortable with. There was one time that I was tasked to do something at home which was to basic...

I was browsing on some random Facebook page when I thought to myself: What if I buy a couple of contact lenses because I missed them? Would that be fun? I guess so...I remember my fascination with contact lenses were from anime series that I've watched. I love seeing girls with different eye colors and I hoped to get them too. I might save up some money for that. I might buy myself a couple of circle lens just in case I need some fun in my life. I can't really think of anything today which is weird. Is it because it is Valentines? I just shiver at the thought that today was supposed to be the first Valentines I might have spent with my now ex-boyfriend. Yes. I am still being bitter about it. I am not bitter about the break up but rather the things we could've done together. But a lot of people have told me that it was for the better if he was just not into the relationship as I was with him. I tried my very best to be as cordial to all the couples I've s...

I've told myself that after my recent break up that I will change. But how can I change if my heart is not ready for it? I have started doing meditation again to lessen my anxiety. It makes me feel better whenever I meditate which is oddly fascinating because as much as I love to focus on myself, I unconsciously think of others first but when I meditate I just let myself free. A lot of my friends have told me that it would be best if I just focus myself first and not look for a partner...which is weird because is that the vibe I give out to people? Am I unconsciously telling people that I want to be in a relationship now?  To be quite honest, I am hoping to be in a relationship with this guy that I have been talking to lately, but it turns out that he was just interested in getting laid. I was thankful that my instinct were right. There are men out there who prey on women that are still broken from a recent break up so they can get laid. Its a sad reality that nowadays...

I am supposed to do this daily, but I can't. I am still trying to maintain this because I promised myself that I will do this as often as possible. Lately I have been extremely tired. I just wanted to lay down my bed and just sleep. I am not sick but I just missed doing nothing. I missed not having an agenda for the day, I miss just enjoying staring blankly at the sky as if seeing the clouds change its form before my eyes. I miss myself.  I have always had a weird fascination with the clouds. I like seeing them form shapes in my head and just move slowly. I remember when I was a child that I wanted to be a cloud which is weird i know so don't judge me. But as we grow older, those things change. We get responsibilities as we get older we may like it or not. I felt shackled with a constant fear of seeing my life being handled by other people. I just wanted to live. I just wanted to feel alive . The other night I just started crying out of the blue. Nothing really...

I know I should've posted this at the beginning of the year but give me a break okay? Life has been beating me lately which made me realize I should really get my act together at least for once.  So here are my 5 Life Goals for 2018.