Alice Does Blogs

 With our current situation, A lot of people are now experiencing anxiety more and more. To be honest, I have been feeling anxious more than ever with the amount of bills and dues that I have put myself into but of course life has to still go on and we need to find a way to lessen our anxiety about these trying times so here are some of the things I have done that worked.  WHAT IS ANXIETY? according to www.nhs.uk    Anxiety  is a feeling of unease, such as worry or fear, that can be mild or severe.   Honestly Anxiety manifests differently to everyone. I have been diagnosed with mild anxiety as well which can be manageable with some techniques to give yourself a better well being to lessen anxiety. Usually with moderate to severe cases of anxiety requires a lot more therapy and also medication.  How to your if you have one is quite easy - if you feel uneasy and its making you short of breath that's anxiety my friend. Overthinking of situations can also ...

I was the type of person that cared too much how people see me. I terribly think of how others think of me - A TOTAL FREAKIN PEOPLE PLEASER! But a few years ago I had a meltdown. A terrible one. I was kind of in a catatonic state where I would just wake up, do stuff that looked like living but essentially I was hollow on the inside. It sucked. I hated myself that time that I actually didn't cared anymore. The worst part was the anxiety attacks I keep getting and I didn't even knew I was in one!  When I started therapy (again) , my therapist asked me what was I feeling then. I felt sick. I had sick thoughts of just burning or cutting myself or letting myself fall from the flight of stairs I walked everyday. I thought I was experiencing home sickness but it was far more worse when I realized it. Therapy works guys . And one of the things I learned about myself was I was such a people pleaser because I was driven to exhaustion to succeed. I thought that if I'm succe...

I know what you are thinking - AND ITS NOT THAT WORD! The big T word I am meaning to share for a long time is Therapy. I know its quite a sensitive topic to talk about and yes, I go on therapy. Why tho?  Well because I have a lot of issues I need to fix within myself and honestly I need a professional to help me. Talking to a friend is fine but it doesn't really solve all my unfinished issues and repressed emotions because it takes someone that is well grasped in psychology to be able to tell me what's wrong and what I need to do. Its so twisted whenever I tell people that I go on a session almost every week because its like I'm insane - which I am not, I just need to discuss my issues and find clarity in the situations I get myself into. Is it expensive? YES. Its quite expensive, especially here in the Philippines because there are not a lot of mental health care providers that are readily available unlike in the United States where mental health is quite impor...

I guess you are wondering what happened to me. Well, A lot happened. Some of them I would prefer not to talk about at the moment so I would ask for your understanding. They are the reasons why I gave my blog a screeching halt for a few months. And its hard because even if I am totally passionate in what I do, there are some things and circumstances that happened that will make you forget your passion for a while. And I have to take care of my responsibilities first because they are my top priority. I do appreciate all the messages and emails I received when you guys thought I died (Please don't think that!) I was just in a phase in my life where I needed to step up for a while and assume the 'older' sibling for a while because as cold hearted people think I am - I HAVE A FREAKIN HEART! I can't just leave my mother hanging without someone holding her back. Yah. That is one of the reasons - My mother. I love her dearly and I would go above and beyond to mak...

I am supposed to do this daily, but I can't. I am still trying to maintain this because I promised myself that I will do this as often as possible. Lately I have been extremely tired. I just wanted to lay down my bed and just sleep. I am not sick but I just missed doing nothing. I missed not having an agenda for the day, I miss just enjoying staring blankly at the sky as if seeing the clouds change its form before my eyes. I miss myself.  I have always had a weird fascination with the clouds. I like seeing them form shapes in my head and just move slowly. I remember when I was a child that I wanted to be a cloud which is weird i know so don't judge me. But as we grow older, those things change. We get responsibilities as we get older we may like it or not. I felt shackled with a constant fear of seeing my life being handled by other people. I just wanted to live. I just wanted to feel alive . The other night I just started crying out of the blue. Nothing really...