Alice Does Blogs

I am supposed to do this daily, but I can't. I am still trying to maintain this because I promised myself that I will do this as often as possible. Lately I have been extremely tired. I just wanted to lay down my bed and just sleep. I am not sick but I just missed doing nothing. I missed not having an agenda for the day, I miss just enjoying staring blankly at the sky as if seeing the clouds change its form before my eyes. I miss myself.  I have always had a weird fascination with the clouds. I like seeing them form shapes in my head and just move slowly. I remember when I was a child that I wanted to be a cloud which is weird i know so don't judge me. But as we grow older, those things change. We get responsibilities as we get older we may like it or not. I felt shackled with a constant fear of seeing my life being handled by other people. I just wanted to live. I just wanted to feel alive . The other night I just started crying out of the blue. Nothing really...

Yes. I know I am posting this a day after its supposed to. I can explain. It sounds weird but on the day of my birthday I had a mental breakdown. I was emotionally exhausted to the point that I just wanted to cry. Luckily, babe was there to calm me down because more and more my anxiety attacks become worse and worse. One of the things I am thankful was someone made an effort to make me feel my birthday was special besides from my immediate family - my TBDC family. They didn't really gave me the glitzy kind of party but just a simple dinner where we just spent hours upon hours of talking and catching up since I have been busy at the bakery last 2017. TBDC has been my second family. They loved me to the point that even if I screwed up they would just be there backing me up. Besides from my immediate family, my TBDC family showed me a whole new world ahead of me. They believed in my potential and made me a better person now. Thank you The Big Difference Communications for ...

Jeskelerd ITS OFFICIAL! I AM 29 YEARS OLD!  I cannot stress enough how old I feel now that my 20s are ending. That reality just hit me hard in the face when I realized that damn girl you will be entering the 30 mark in another 365 days of your life. But nonetheless I am thankful. I am thankful of all the people, those that have stayed and those that just chose to pass by to mold me into the person that I am. There were just things in life that will go and stay for the better so if you are experiencing that don't worry more people will come your way. I had a talk with my mom the other night about the impending stress we will be having about expanding my business. I already told her that I will be hiring new people in to help us out and she stressed out the fact that she is one of the most paranoid people in the world. This part actually was when our talk became a screaming match because she won't budge for it and it frustrated me because we won't go anywhere if we ...

Hey there! I should've wrote this sooner but you know - holidays! I went back to manning the bakery today at 7AM. It was gruesome. I am not a morning person so putting on a smile in the morning is just dreadful for a person like me. I know its weird since I am quite known to be very outgoing and jolly but to be fair not everyone can be perfect. Today was fine. There were a lot of free time for me to do things around the bakery. For one, I was able to organize all the items that we need to stock up like coffee and the drinks. I'm surprised at how meticulous I am when it comes to organizing things. I get too obsessed in making it all aligned and coordinated I am surprised. I did something stupid today though. I would like to kick myself in the face because I just sucked in keeping my mouth shut. I honestly hate my own mouth at times its annoying. Another thing that kept me busy is reading Mangas of Junji Ito. If you don't know him-GOOGLE.HIM.NOW. I am a big ass ...